Masta SancheZ
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Message #10545 posted by Masta SancheZ (Info) May 14, 2005 16:17:24 ET
In Reply to: Crazy trip on Pot!! posted by silent blaze (Info) May 06, 2005 18:42:07 ET
I dont know if what u have just described can be called psychosis. Maybe a very bad trip.
I have experianced what i actually now believe to be psychosis (I am studying pharmacy now) for about a week when i was at uni. Having the freedom 2do wot i wanted i started caning proper hardcore (about 8-10 spliffs a day of skunk) for about a month. After caning i would come back into my room and listen 2 music which would knock me out. It was only wen i woke up that i started feeling the effects of excessive use.
Psychosis is referred to as the 'hearing of voices' inside ur head, and believe me when i say i heard a LOT of voices. They were just those of people i knew in general (mum, dad, friends etc.) and were not fictional. They would say things, not necessarily disturbing things, but just things that maybe i made up in my head. U know when u have a memory about someone saying something and u can replay it in ur head? Thats exactly what it felt like, only these were not memories. They were situations i had built up in my head. During this time period i had immense difficulty in seperating fact from fiction, my 'dream' world from the real world. I was extremely confused and they just would NOT stop talking.
For a couple of days i lay down on my bed facing the wall curled up on my bed just listening 2 these voices go on and on in my head and i just couldnt get rid of them. I couldnt communicate propery with people and I couldt sleep. It was pure hell.
Then i made a decision 2 change my lifestyle. I stopped the draw, and started going to the gym, and easing my way into social circles which my fragile state of mind had sucked me out of. About a month after my week of psychosis hell I felt on top of the world. For about 1 week (maybe my week of heaven?) I felt amazing. No more voices, pure reality and social and physical well-being. I would say that in that one week i was the happiest I have ever been in my entire life, maybe even more than now.
Nowadays I am weary of gear, although my bad experiance hasnt taken me off it completely. I still love to have the occaisional spliff WITH FRIENDS, relax, chill and talk. I do not for one moment regret what i went through, and i think it needed to happen in order for me 2 get a grip on my life. Im not a particularly unstable person, but that week of hell brought out a lot of issues which would have otherwise been left in the shadows instead of being dealt with.
My advice to anyone who thinks they are going through psychosis is to take a step back and ask what u really want from smoking ur gear. Smoking excessive amounts, and ESPECIALLY being alone for long periods of time whilst stoned is something u do not want to make a habit of. The voices become a part of your loneliness and before u know it they just wont go away. Give the smoking a break for a while and see how u feel about things. Like me u might be happy with the odd one here and there.
Take care, and enjoy smoking draw for the right reasons.
and another thing - cranberry juice is number one for detoxification of the body - whatever drug u take. So drink it on a regular basis - it helps!
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