NOWAYOUT
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May-01-2006
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Message #10875 posted by NOWAYOUT (Info) May 01, 2006 12:30:30 ET
NO WAY OUT! I've rolled more times you could imagine for a few years.. If you're still in the crowd with the coolest crew @ the club, you'll deny this message, and yet haven't found out what comes next. Yeah, we're all cool, pimping, and got moves like a motha on the floors, but that stops real quick! Have you tried not taking it when you go out? Have you tried not taking it when you drink? How hard is that? Trying to get off it, whats your substitute, coke? Yeah, ive been there too. Then if you're lucky enough, you'll realize you cant even drink anymore cause just going to eat where people are drinking, makes you want to drink, the when you start drinking, you're not having a good enough time as you do with E, or now coke, and you try your ass off to get it, and if not, you've had the worst possible night ever. It happens again & again & again! Then if you finally realize you can no longer drink cause you cant stop doing drugs, beacuse you cant seem to have a good time without them (boring). You then stay home, everynight, everyweekend, every family function, because for some odd reason you started to hate people. Starts small with just taking hours to a week to call them back. Then goes into months. I havent seen some in years, cause they finally stopped calling. Then the Anxiety creeps in. Small things you need to do, seem to become a major catostrophe. So you piss, moan, complain, because you just dont want to deal with it! Which then turns into people. You girlfriend/wife/parent/friends/ start to feel like the biggest pains in the ass and do just about everything to get them the hell away from you , day by day, until their gone! Ya know whats thats called? Depression!Anxiety!.. Yup, you now fit in that group that can't deal with life cause "WE HAD SOME PHATT ROLLS LAST NIGHT!" and turned into once a weekend, then twice a weekend, then you bump up how many u take till you know more than 5 might kill you in that night.. It goes on and on, cause you dont want to miss the club 1 night!
"I'll tell ya, i stopped two years ago, the last two were a family wedding!& july 4th party with family! yeah real smart right? Ive finally quit drinking not much after that and i'll tell you, I had the hottest girlfriend, "smokin" who I treated like shit everyday. No reason at all, last person left out of anybody in your life, that will still acctually talk to you, because everyone else knows you're such a miserable prick, finally thinks you're never going back to the normal person she wanted in the begining. So now here I am realizing all those hardcore nights rolling my ass off , ruined every fucking chance of living a normal undepressed, no worrying life are gone. I found this site realizing that the past two years helping myself get over it, has fallen into the "I need a shrink!" category. If you have the chance to not take it that first time,are in to deep now,or are searching how to het out of it. The sooner the better my friend! Cause this SUCKS!
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